Tuesday, December 28, 2010


Interesting, that part of my journey over the past year has included this strong and persistent voice saying, "You are more than a piano player. You are more than just a piano player."

True, that.

But this week I am spending time with this instrument, which happens to be my favorite piano on earth. My hands rest on the keys and I feel home. It is incredibly difficult to describe; it's more intuitive than anything else. A feeling, an emotional connection. Odd, I know, because to most, it's just a piano.

But it's more than that. And this particular instrument is home to me.

This morning, I played scales for a long time, round and round the circle of 5ths. Whole notes, then quarters, eighths, triplets, sixteenths - the same way I teach my current students. Arpeggios and broken chords followed. I played and played, and found myself so settled by the linear, mechanical certainty of how my fingers fell. "1-2-3-1-2-3-4-1-2-3-1-2-3-4...."

The patterns are etched into my brain.

I played a little Beethoven and the peace of dissonance and resolution settled me. Seems all is right with the world.

I am a pianist. I am more than that, surely; but at the moment I am reminded that at my core, built into my soul by my Creator, honed by years of diligent practice and a hunger for harmonic beauty, I am a pianist.

I'm resting in that today. And I am satisfied.


designsbysusan said...

and yes you are! and we are very thankful.

Anonymous said...

You should hear her play; really good. : )

annie said...

If I were there, Beth, I'd ask you to play for me while I pondered the mysteries of life!

I am not a pianist but I took lessons for a while when I was young (wanted to play gospel songs like, um, like Jimmy Swaggart!). Yesterday we had a piano moved back to our house that a family friend had been using. I sat down with a couple junior hymn books and pecked out a few songs. It would have probably hurt your ears very much but it delighted me a whole bunch!

If I were closer, I'd take lessons from you!

Pilgrim Soul said...

Just got doing some scales myself... I think I can remember how to do this...